annietheowl

I've realized that i talk too much. but this is because i think way too fast. thousands of complicated thoughts mixed with agonizingly simple thoughts race through my mind and must burst out to be in any way coherent. they speed by faster than i can catch them. so i speak them and put them out into the world in a more organized fashion than i can manage in my head. but this causes problems because people listen. people react. one simple thought leads to more complicated ones and i soon dont know what path my mind is taking me on. i hurt others because i have to speak my mind. i talk talk talk. and i say too much.

i am the kind of person who is happy being alone. i am content barely interacting in my relationships, in the way that a skipped rock seldom touches the water. i am horrible because i only make use of my friends when i realize my loneliness. i am numb. Most ordinary feelings are very far from my emotional range. where most people could  feel the small tendrils of loneliness as it starts gripping their hearts, i feel it only when its finally filled every nook and cranny. But i've realized that other people crave human acceptance. They need their existence to be acknowledged.   my sister broke up with her boyfriend. and told me: he nev

So last night while I was staying up like I always do I realized I was fat. This is because every article of clothing I put on looked absolutely terrible. So I decided id change my ways. I turned the lights off and started doing sit-ups. God knows how many I actually did because I didn't start counting until I could feel it.  Afterwards while I lied on the floor like a fish gasping for water, I decided to that whole jogging thing. ..Actually who was I trying to kid? My neighborhood is way too dangerous for that.  Nonetheless I started to get dressed in the dark. That was way harder than you think so I turned on the lights.  Donning leggings,